I went by train to visit Him today, it was far more intense than expected and I enjoyed every moment. There’s never enough time, but it’s always worth it.
Month: June 2017
Shirty
The leather shirt I ordered arrived today, I made the necessary small talk with the delivery driver and then rushed inside to try it on, it feels and smells amazing!
Absolutely delighted, 7 days from order to delivery is just incredible and the quality is great.
A great day 🙂
AnxietyÂ
I’ve booked up to go to the Manchester leather weekend in October, however I’m battling a bit with anxiety.
I’ve already booked and paid for my accommodation and for the tickets to the three club nights. I’ve not been to a club in a long time, let alone anything fetishy.
I want to join in properly, I don’t want to be the only one not getting to play, but the kind of guys I like can be a bit intimidating.
What to wear?
I’ve acquired some quality leather jeans and a waistcoat (vest) along with leather braces and harness boots. For a while I’ve wanted a shirt and that’ll certainly lead on to a Sam Browne and a tie.
Any thoughts on what a sub should or should not wear?
Comments welcome!
Lag
Home from holiday, jet lagged, first thing I did on returning home was to lock his collar back around my neck, and to message him to tell him.
One a day
I’ve been given a daily task by Sir:
Daily task for you … send a picture a day that inspires you or is something you aspire to do / have done to you.
And a reason for the choice.
I think he knew that I needed something to focus on, and I did. I need contact but he’s a busy man and can’t or isn’t able to give me as much time as I would sometimes like, I do understand that, and things like this definitely help, it’s a nice combination of distraction and following instructions.
My first choices have been:
To sleep, perchance to dream
I’m not sure quite what prompted it, but I started looking into the interactions between benzodiazepines and REM sleep, it appears that they suppress REM sleep and their withdrawal results in REM sleep rebound.
It’s interesting more than worrying, I’ve used various types of benzodiazepines over the last few years, never for more than a couple of nights at a time. I do sometimes get crazy dreams, but then of course any changes to brain chemistry can cause that.
I could probably go to the doctor and explain, but it’s more likely that I won’t.
Plague
I’ve probably had one of my ideal holiday days, get up when I feel like it, read, snooze, read, get lunch, listen to music whilst chatting to friends online.
I am, however, destined to be plagued with insecurities.
Maybe Carol Vorderman can take all of my small and medium insecurities and consolidate them into one massive insecurity.
Listening interrupted
I’ve loved the band Erasure ever since I was about 17, I have a LOT of Erasure music. I own a copy of every album, along with a great many CD singles and remix singles, also some vinyl and a large number of remixes acquired at the time of the almighty Napster.
I’ve only ever seen them live a small number of times, mainly due to money, opportunity and also some level of anxiety, but I loved the times I was able to see them.
Yesterday I had a song in my head and I sat down with my earphones to listen, and with impeccable timing they were only working on the one side, moment ruined. Later my husband remembered seeing a radio shack in a nearby shopping centre and suggested that we go there the following day.
I’m now back up and running, after slightly cursing the lack of an audio jack in my phone. Everything seems to run in phases with me.
Scotsboy 